When something bad happens, it only opens up my eyes for better opportunities, it can give me a different path in life, maybe just a few steps closer to something much more better then I imagined. When change happens, just accept and embrace it and go with the flow. It can be scary because you don’t know what’s going to happen, where you’ll end up but just be confident and don’t lose sight on the good stuff.

ϟ behbehh!

i love you to the fullest!! =) you are everything ive been asking and want!! we are on a different path, and this is the best path, back to where we were. :) i love you!

ϟ Don’t let doubts get to me..

Please, I don’t want to have doubts again. I got through the pain in the past, why can’t you do that, I know I fucked up, that was the past. Don’t bring up the past into the present, its only hurting you, me and us being together. Don’t tell me to get over the past when you can’t do it yourself. I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done, I don’t know why you can’t see that, we need to focus on the present us, not the what happened to us in the past. And you can’t tell me I’m all talk and I haven’t changed, I’ve changed so much for you, when will you be able to open your eyes and appreciate that instead of constantly telling me that I always do shit over and over and ill never change. I’m doing my best. And you saying that I don’t make you happy, that I’m fkng irritating, your tired of my bullshit actions, I keep doing annoying shit constantly, I make you want to give up and that you don’t even know anymore. And you esp. calling me a stranger. You wonder why I get quiet, its only because I’m surpised that you don’t see all the good things I do for you, all my bad outweighs the good in your eyes, I’m scared that you’ll leave me because you’re going to want something better for you and because I never have the right words to say at the time. The stuff you say makes me think you want to leave. Should I be prepared..? Also you tell me not to assume or doubt, then why do you keep doing it.? When you do something that hurts me, and I ask you why do you that, your backup saying is because I do it, if that’s the case then teach me not to do it instead of doing it to me, your pretty much showing me that its ok to do it since I and you do it. You don’t know how much you hurt me with your words, but through all the pain, I can’t and don’t want to let you go. Quit turning tables..

ϟ Not good enough..

Everything good thing I do, when I put into effort into something, when I think I’m doing good, I never get recognized for it or I get let down when they say I can do better. I’m always expected to do better than I’m already doing my best. Why can’t anyone see that?